Hi, Stephny, You must have been through to Hell and back! I'm just a concerned hetero male, so don't worry.
Have had a few gay friends over the years, but not trans. Would you like to get in touch? Up until about three months ago, I was a musician(guitar and vocals), had a bad fall(one of many!), but this time, I busted my left hand: not exactly Jimi Hendrix or Eric Clapton! Trying to get back into it, but it's not easy.
What sort of music are you into, do you read, do you like poetry?
I had to take early retirement from Pathology(Biochemistry/mortuary)some years ago, following a spinal injury.
Up until then, I swam or gym or both every morning before work. Eventually, I had to give those pursuits up when I couldn't keep my car on the road with my diminished incoming finances.
All the best, Gerry